Lost Control Again
i’m so totally not being myself after came back frm thailand trip. Tis is odd, normally i’ll be very ease n fresh after travelling. but not tis time. i wonder if it’s the reason tat my mom stays there or I don meet him often or perhaps School’s out…
I cnt control my mind frm being so emotional, unreasonable, thinking rubbish n having nonsensical thoughts. it feels like when InuYasha broke his sword Tessaiga in half during the confrontation with a dog demon called Goshinki n Succumbed to his demon blood, which flows in his half-demon body, leading him to a transformation into a strong death demon who kills every living things; When Xiao yu frm the movie ‘’secret” feel dissapointed after knowing tat her mum doesn believe in her n took the medicines; When Edward scissorhands saw his lover back to the naughty boy. it’s a feeling of throwing something very big n heavy at an object. I would rather say hard to explain.
Perhaps, Wat Xiao Lun’s dad said in ‘’secret” is rite:”Those who don listen to the music r bad guys, they hav nonsensical thoughts in their mind.” It’s really been a while i din listen to my favourite soundtrack album-Pirates of the Caribbean:At World’s Ends, my favourite instrumental album- Classical album frm Vanessa-Mae. Also, i din sing classical songs for weeks…
Sigh, Maybe tis is the life of a musician.. Eventhough i’m yet a professional musician… When life without music is like when life without water… SO much for it…
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